nostalgic
I'm so sorry for the crappy image, but I HAVE to include an image, and I'm never sure what images to use for these things. So I just took that ^ Like.. right now.
Anyway. I'm kinda drunk. Not totally battered, but you know; that sort of perfect messy? I thought it was about time I did another one of these brain splurges.
Right now I'm listening to Alkaline Trio - Fuck You Aurora, just in case you want to know for context and things. This song gives me so many feels, for so many different reasons. Mostly regret I'd say. So you would think I'd stop listening, but I also adore it haha.
I can feel a friendship slipping, and there's nothing I can do to fix it. I hate it. The more I mention it though, the more it seems to fade. And trying to fix it.. well, I am trying. But it seems pointless right now. And I believe the other person when they say it's not intentional, but.. it could be stopped? You know? Surely.
I'm actually in a good-ish mood, but I'm also thinking about some things that aren't great I guess. The people I miss, the things I'm not doing, how I'm not quite the person I want to be yet. I never really say out loud, or even written down I guess, OR even in my own head... how insanely worried I am. Focusing on the positive all the time really helps me. But it doesn't mean I don't have any problems, or these troubling thoughts don't enter my head and really nestle in there. Because they do.
